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如果我可以直接開啟，並把其成為信仰，或可成就非凡。最近我在閱讀翻譯文學，一本有關「紅」的小說，內文很懸，讓人像被高掛在半天上動彈不得。不打緊，大不了累一點。在平常不能為的位置，不需要跟著別人的軸心而運轉，或道此為幸福。

在閱讀的過程中，我發現身體的某部份離開了自己，那曾長久牽扯著我的心痛，忽爾煥然一新，像吸一口很新鮮的空氣。這，很好吧。如是者，我嘗試對著鏡子說，把迷你我 好好放進時間樽並攜帶著書本，迷迭在字戀中。我像魚兒離開水，好一陣子透不過氣來，終於有回潮的感覺。不得不承認自己不再年青，不是年紀的問題，著實是種心態。頗感幸這份知足及花火，像看著維港景色的平靜，不再喜歡吵鬧，人變得安然下來。

早前的休假中，我在夢中遇見許多舊人；我們已經很久很久沒見，一個接一個對談，回顧那曾經動地的心事，然後相互微笑，道一聲不枉。經歷如細沙，堆積成堡壘，讓我居住在內，不怕風吹雨打。夢醒後我坐在床邊，看天外一色，目無表情地想那或是真實的成份。每隔一陣子，我總會想起數位舊人，回憶他們在我生命留下一記記筆痕。然後在里程碑下回首，閱讀那用細意編織而成的道路。那天，午後一個人留在房子內，我雙手合十並暗唸祝福。突然想起，在很久很久以前，當自己還是青澀像初暮，唱一千遍給我愛過的男孩子時，便但願年月會撫平那些起伏，安穩那些不欲提的傷心。終於，咽在心頭的痛也退去了，餘下和菓子般的甜美，在日月下品嚐。當下，停不了的雙手告知，那由前世修行而來的福氣，並著意要好好走下去以續弦來世的娓娓。

晚安，親愛的可人兒，會走過的。把不安放下，學著喜愛原我，把蘊藏在最底層的真浮現，並欣賞那原始率性的自己。祝願你 不要傷悲。

l.o.n.g.t.i.m.e.n.o.s.e.e.

1. What time is it? 11:38pm
2 Name: Leafy
3. What are you most afraid of? Birds/ Chickens/ Lost
4. What do you drive? N/A
5. Have you ever seen a ghost? Nope.
6. Where were you born? China - Hawaii
7. Ever been to Alaska? Nope.
8. Ever been toilet papering rolling or decorating trees? Nope.
9. Croutons or bacon bits? Bacon!
10. Favorite day of the week? Sat
11. Favorite restaurant: Korean Restaurant
12. Favorite Flower: I don't like flowers. I like leaves.
13. Favorite sport to watch: Basketball, Volleyball
14. FAVORITE DRINK: Coke, Caramel Coffee, Water
15. Favorite Ice cream: Berries
16. Warner Bros. Or Disney: WARNER BROS!
17. Favorite fast food restaurant: Burger King
18. What color is your bedroom carpet? Red
19. How many times you failed your driver's test? 0 - i've never taken one
20. Before this one, who did you get your last e-mail from? Godmom
21. What do you do most often when you are bored? read+eat+sleep+watch tv/movie altogether
22. Bed Time? Before 2am
23. Who will respond to this email the quickest? Nobody
24. Who is the person you sent this to that is least likely to respond? I wont send to anybody. Just post it on my blog.
25. Who is the person that you are most curious to see their responses? May be my godmom
26. Favorite TV show? Friends/ Sex and the City
27. Ford or Chevy? eh? Cooper
28. What are you listening to right now? Beingqw
29. What are your favorite colors? Black, Red
30. How many tattoos do you have? Zero
31. Do you have any pets? Nope. But I want an English short hair.
32. Which came first the chicken or the egg? God
33. What would you like to accomplish before you die? Be Famous
34. How many people are you sending this e-mail to? None

Long Time No See.....